I've been through a lot lately but it all eventually strengthened me & showed me how much He loves me.
Many times i felt weak & lost & during that time i kept asking myself what happened?
Where did it all go wrong?
Where was my zeal, love, commitment, dedication, where was everything? 😢
I prayed & couldn't feel God.
I searched for peace & couldn't find it.
My papa kept saying pray but nothing was happening.
I got tired & started giving in. Little by little he pulled me further away. It was tough & you know why?
Because i kept telling myself it's not easy & i couldn't do it but i was trying my best. 😩
But now i look back & laugh 😄. Why? Because i realized what i kept saying had become my prison, i was held captive by my mind & my conscience was too weak to help me.
I was so scared 😖 but deep down i wanted it to end😞.
Well guess what, it has ended. No i didn't give up 😄, i grew up.
Now that i think of it i remember something i read & am sure it's in the bible. It said to make nice jewelry out of gold, we first put it in fire. The fire heats it & even melts it (weakens it) but it is at that hot point that the gold can be beaten into any product or jewelry. After shaping it then it's put in water to cool it & make it strong & beautiful.
Now which point of gold are you?
The raw gold? ,
The heated gold? Or
The melted gold?
Which ever it is just remember that soon you'll be beaten into shape (the most painful part) but after that you'll be cooled & you'll become beautiful & strong. Keep holding on & don't give up because it's almost over.
-Pezzy
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